A friend of mine came up with the term Impermanence Pangs to describe the uneasiness of being aware of something that you know won't last - a relationship, a great date with a person soon to leave town permanently, or a few moments with a cat that's about to be adopted. While I think that accepting (and somehow finding happiness in) the general impermanence of life is one of the coolest ways to live however many years we have left, I can see where she's coming from. I mean, I'm not anywhere near the whole "be happy with or without" idea, but I aim towards it every day. Today, there's this blazer, for example. I wore it to a show once and got a few compliments on it, which was nice, but then I hung it up and immediately forgot about it for two years. Then I found it again, wore it again, and back in the closet it went. In other words, I don't care about it, one way or another. Impermanence Pangs hit me when I fear losing something irreplaceable, but ultimately, let's be real: every feeling is replaceable, every memory foreshadows an even greater one, and every day is a new way to find irrevocable elation.
Saturday, March 10, 2012
impermanence pangs
I grew up in Tallinn, Estonia, watching a television show called Moomin. It's a story about a family of hippos who have a grumpy but loveable human friend named Little My. Of Little My is a collection of things I think are funny, and of moments I think are worth noting, in a life at times grumpy but loveable.
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